❤️‍🩹March — Loving, but Afraid

Sometimes I ask myself a strange question: How can someone I’ve never even met in person mean this much to me?

Everything between us exists only through messages and the occasional phone call.

And yet, somehow, he still finds a way to stay in my thoughts.

Sometimes I wonder if this feeling even makes sense. How can a voice, a few conversations, and a small space in my phone slowly become something so important to me?

Maybe it’s because when we talk, everything feels easy. Comfortable. Like I can just be myself without trying too hard.

But the truth is… we don’t talk that often.

Most days, we’re just living our own lives separately.

And in those quiet days, my mind starts wandering.

I start wondering if he misses me too.

Or if I’m the only one thinking about him this much.

Sometimes I’m afraid of losing him, even though I never really had him in the first place.

But there’s another fear inside me too.

I’m afraid that my feelings are growing too much for something that is still so uncertain. Afraid that one day I might have to fight my own heart just to make these feelings smaller.

And that thought scares me.

Because even if it’s just through a screen, even if it’s only through short calls and messages… he still brings a small kind of happiness into my days.

So now I’m stuck somewhere in between.

Between loving someone I’ve never met, being afraid of losing him, and being afraid of having to let go of the feelings that quietly grew inside my heart.

Maybe this is what March feels like for me.

A heart full of feelings… and too many questions.

But for now… I’m just trying to live with it :')